Blah. I hate everything. Except lightning he is sexy.
I still can't get a shrink to call me back. I want to talk to one because I want to make sure my thinking is straight before I do anything drastic. I am probably not trying hard enough because I am in a kind of depressed quitting mental state but you would think someone would want my money.
I feel like I can not accomplish anything in this situation and need to take the drastic steps. I have stopped a lot of the positive things I started beginning this year with. It's just kind of like why the fuck bother.
I talked to the kid on the way to camp today. I wanted to get a feel for what he thought about the whole situation. I asked how he would feel about moving. He said he did not want to move at all!!!!! I asked if he could stay in his school would he mind. He was alright with that. Since I finally got the nerve up to talk to him about things I asked if he thought the current situation was bad. With mom calling the cops and all the fights and stuff. He said he was fine with how it was. He basically said "Man up, she only called them once'. ug. Fucking kid.
I sort of expected him to say the situation sucked. Since all you assholes said he would say that. No but seriously I was kind of surprised that he said it was better to have both of us living together than to split up. It really kind of shocked me a little. I do not really know how to respond to that. Not that kids know anything about anything but just adds another burden to the situation.
On a better note the boy is playin' all the little girls at his camp. He told me he is kissing this one girl so that the girl he liked would and I quote "Come crawling back to me begging". erm. Actually to his credit it appears to be working as her last few texts have been along the lines of "Oh maybe I would go out with you", and "So do you like the other girl, some other girl in camp wants to know"? I told him to be non-committal in his response and say "I do not know her well enough yet". Last night the girl who is asking about the kissing said she was getting her makeup on to look pretty and my son replies, "You do not have to make yourself pretty, you are pretty". He says he is going to teach me all about girls. He could be right.