Monday, July 09, 2012

FML


I am frustrated with shit. It seems like trying to do things the way I have is not going to work.

Last night my son was not listening to anything I was saying. I told him to go to his room several times and he just basically said "fuck you no". I got frustrated with him. So finally I get up and push him towards his room and give him a little punch in the back shoulder. Not hard in my opinion. He does not cry. Does not flinch. It was really just a friendly tap to me. He thought nothing of it and finally gets the point I am fed up with his behavior and goes to his room.

So long story short the wife calls the cops on me. They come to the house. I am obviously angry and say "what the fuck" going to the door which they overhear. So they give me the hard ass routine. I doubt they had any intention of ever arresting me. Fuck at this point it probably be relaxing to go to jail.

So the cop is talking to me and he is like "do you want your son to hate you?", you can't live your life yelling at people, swearing at your wife, punching your kid when he does not listen. Somewhat I think this is bullshit but who knows. Maybe I am a fucking asshole and just do not realize it. I mean I feel like I have done nothing really bad. I feel guilty about my kids because I have pulled back from doing things with them as I got depressed... so it's really difficult for me and them.

He also said my son is all sad that the cops came and thinks it is his fault for not listening. I told him it was not his fault. Which I totally believe. Not sure if it is my fault or my wife's or what.

So the cop is all like this is all on you. You are the man in the family. It all starts and ends with you. He says my wife is afraid of me. I have never hit or touched her. I have yelled at her. I do have a lot of anger for the bullshit she pulls. I think you need to actually do something to be a criminal? I dunno.

The cop was telling me how he needed counseling for his family and was pretty nice overall even though he was trying to be a tough guy. I agreed to go see a shrink to talk about shit. I feel like I can handle things better but I do not feel like I abuse my kids or my wife at all.

So I cried a bit and was not really talkative with my son after that. I was a little because I did not want him to feel it was his fault.

Now I am really sad because I can not go on like this. It is ridiculous. So basically my options are to, in my opinion, really abuse my children and force them to leave their friends, go to a new town, try and make new friends which is very hard at the Jr. High level.. cause them endless pain... fucking blow this whole situation up. I obviously put my own experiences on this and it may be that they just fit in with the new kids.

I am not dealing with having cops come to my house. I am sick of being treated like a criminal because of shit my wife does. She stops paying bills and I find out years later she has not paid taxes, some bills are in court and I have a warrant for my arrest because I missed a court case in debt court or something.

I think I should just turn myself in and go to nice jail. Relax. Snooze on the pillows. No work. No kids. No wife. Sounds like heaven at least for a little while. I just can not fix anything. I do not know what to do. I am not such a huge dick that I could run away. Something extreme has to happen I think because I am not dealing with this shit anymore.

I think being depressed is the proper state of mind for my current life.

16 Comments:

Blogger KenP said...

Who is to fault. In ascending order of guilt:
1. Your son for being a kid and working his parents. That is wrong. And he should feel guilt. Blast him with the truth and be more honest with him.
2. Your wife for all the obvious reasons she hates your guts.
3. You for being in this situation after EVERYONE says to get out of this destructive situation and get the divorce. You have your kids playing the power game. They see their parents being total idiots to each other. And your moving out would be worse???

Your being unwilling to halt this melodrama in your house is affecting your children more than whatever other stupid shit you could come up with. Look at what is happening. This is either what your kids see as normal or creating guilt for them thinking they are bad for cops/marriage/battles etc.

Waffles, who the hell wouldn't be depressed living your life. Choose change and move on! EVERYBODY will be better off. Even that witch you married.

4:21 AM

 
Blogger KenP said...

From another angle:
I am frustrated with shit. It seems like trying to do things the way I have is not going to work.

NO SHIT, SHERLOCK!

I think being depressed is the proper state of mind for my current life.

NO SHIT, SHERLOCK!

Waffles, if I lead your life I would be curled up in a fetal ball, whimpering. The fact that you retain greater functionality is to your credit.

You're a better man than I, Charlie Brown. Hopefully Charlie didn't end up also married Lucy.

Now you have to move on a get your life back. That last line is golden! Believe it!!!

5:14 AM

 
Blogger The Poker Meister said...

Agree with KenP - get the hell out of that situation. Make a decision and commit to it. Stop getting it so that your kids are in the middle. I can't imagine how difficult it would be, but shit or get off the pot.

6:43 AM

 
Blogger DuggleBogey said...

"Wife called the cops on me."

Why would you try to cooperate with a person who does this? This is a person who CLEARLY considers you an aversary...the enemy. You need do distance yourself from this person as much as possible, for your own protection.

What kind of person does this? The only other explanation is that she was afraid for their safety for a good reason.

If you don't get out then it's pretty obvious you tacitly agree with her that she and your children have something to fear and you are a danger to them, one that requires government intervention on their behalf.

Is that the truth, or was it vindictive?

7:00 AM

 
Blogger SirFWALGMan said...

I dunno about your last question Duggle.. on one hand I think it is just her manipulating the system and making me look bad for divorce time.. on the other hand I think she might be screwed up in the head and actually believe what she says.. I dunno...

I agree with everyone's comments (as I have in the past).. trying to get an appointment with someone to discuss some advice that does not consist of take off and fuck them all.

7:31 AM

 
Blogger Astin said...

get. a. divorce.

Short sentences, put them together into an idea.

You're past doing this for your kids. You're doing this because you're scared. Talk to a shrink and talk to a lawyer.

Anything else is bullshit.

7:42 AM

 
Blogger Josie said...

We are all your friends and there are plenty of us here to support you.

8:35 AM

 
Blogger Miami Don said...

Why the fuck are you there?

Go get an apartment with a short term lease, figure shit out, then get on with your life. It's way fucking overdue.

11:00 AM

 
Blogger Wolfshead said...

Divorce the bitch. It ain't easy but it ain't doing the kids no good if she's going to pull fucking shit like calling the cops in those kinds of situations. Kids might feel a bit guilty about the divorce but as you said the one was feeling guilty anyway about the cops. And make sure you fight for custody or at least a great visitation situation when you do. I played it easy figuring I didn't want tout my kid in the middle of a raging fight figuring we could work things out like adults and am paying for it now as the ex is playing cute little games to disrupt the time I can spend with my daughter. Thakfully I have only 3 more years of having to deal with her.

11:07 AM

 
Blogger Bayne_S said...

Same Shit Different Year.

Cops being called is completely on you because you have not done jack shit to resolve an untenable situation and waited for dude screwing your wife to fix things.

1:50 PM

 
Blogger AgSweep said...

Talk to your lawyer. Explain what happened with cops. Tell them the living situation is no longer tenable and you are exiting. Exit. Neither you or the wife are being the parents you can and should be living in a pressure cooker. Your kids deserve better. You deserve better.

3:58 PM

 
Blogger jamescorbin13 said...

Some ideas: go live in your car for awhile under a bridge. In jail giant dudes with tatoos will just try and make you their bitch.

Join a biker gang.

Go to church. Meet nice women with money who will take care of you.

Volunteer at an animal shelter, burn ward or pediatric cancer center and find out how fucked up someone's life can really be, crybaby.

6:28 AM

 
Blogger SirFWALGMan said...

yeah, that sounds less fucked up, I will go to a burn center and say "HA! HA! You suck! MY life is so much better because you can't even move without being in massive pain! HA! HA! HA!".. that sounds like a great idea you fucking sadist motherfucking moron. Why don't you light yourself on fire and tell me how it works out. Fuck you!

1:38 PM

 
Blogger DrPauly said...

Waffles, I will loan you the money to get a proper divorce attorney. Give me a call to discuss the details.

We need to get you out of this toxic environment. I'm sure all of your friends will help chip in for the WDTCBF (Waffles Divorce the Crazy Bitch Fund). Am I right?

11:28 PM

 
Blogger SmBoatDrinks said...

Amen Pauly!

6:37 PM

 
Blogger APOSEC72 said...

Go get the divorce, maybe sometime around RIGHT NOW.

Trust me, waiting does not help - I've been doing the waiting game for 3 1/2 years, I know it takes a while even with kids around - and it took me a while to figure out that filing for it was going to be better for them than not filing so I finally went ahead and did it. In that kind of toxic situation it could be better than staying around and allowing for situations like this.

If you want to shoot me a note offline, go right ahead. Figuring out and fighting for custody is NOT FUN and takes every ounce of will and concentration and focus to make it happen so that you can make sure YOU are taking care of the kids right.

7:12 AM

 

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