Changes: Menage E Trois
Third time is a charm. I need to change my life people. I have spent too much of it blaming everyone else for all of my problems. If I keep this up I see my future. I will be giving old guys like lightning blow jobs on the street for a sammich and a swig of Jack Daniels. In between swallows (of cum or JD, you decide) I will tell them how it is all my wife's fault that I got here.
I used to believe that we were in control of our lives. Not in control of everything. That is the domain of The Fates, God, Kali (hey baby looking good!), Buddha, whatever you believe in. We have control over how we react and what we do in life. We can decide how to handle every situation in our lives.
I have spent too much of my time on Earth letting things happen to me instead of being an active participant in life. I am done with it. I am done blaming other people for everything. I am done not being in control of my life. I am done being a back seat driver.
It has gone way too far. I do not like the person I have become. I am going to take charge of the things I can in life and stop letting excuses stop me. I have very difficult situations to deal with but there is always a good solution. It will be hard to change something that is so ingrained in myself but I have had enough. I will take control of my life, stop making excuses, and make a life I can be proud of. Everything that is ruined in my life is caused by me. I will change that now.