I find this weird thing we call emotion strange. I am not a very emotional guy aside from my poker ranting. I am not exactly sure why this is. Perhaps because I was taken from my mommy at birth and stuck in an incubator. I like this explanation as it would also explain why I love computers and am somewhat talented with them. Thank you mommy NIC981 Incubator. Love you forever! It may be just because I am a dude. Possibly my turnkey childhood with the parents. You know. Walk home from school. Open the door. Nobody there. Sit down. Watch TV. Do whatever you want. It also could be from my horrible years of school. I guess I have a lot of candidates for being fucked up.
Sometimes though I actually think I do have feelings. The other day I heard a blogger had lost his son. I really do not know him very well. He was one of the first guys I ever read but had slipped away from the poker blog. As I read this I really felt the tears well up in my eyes. I did not cry but it really struck me and made me incredibly sad.
I can not imagine what it would be like to lose a child. All the well wishing and thoughts and prayers while nice just seem like they do not even come close to helping. I hope I never have to understand what this feels like. Life just seems so unfair sometimes.
I guess I am unsure as to why I wanted to share this. It has just been on my mind and I figured I would let it out.